| Juss gettin in the house and what not...had a long ass day..but Im coo now that Im in my comfort zone...glad to say Im back on the strictly solo tip again, had my lil flings here and there, now I got dat outta my system, I'm the same ol' me again...
Last night our power was out, and I had slept all day, so I couldnt go to sleep, so I ended up juss layin in the dark living room and thinking about life and the world. Thinking about what I wanna do with myself and how I gotta go about doing things in life. A nigga got real introspective last night.....dat seems to be me...gettin back to the persona and no longer tryna live 4 the day, startin to think ahead again. Not too much else had been goin on...juss gettin ready to go back to school...juss anxious to be done with that period of life and juss be established and do my own thing.
Got an IM from Tanzi tonight, but I wasnt here to respond, the simple fact was very interesting and slightly shocking. I can't seem to get away from her no matter what. I finally find myself not in love with her anymore, finally bringing myself to get rid of anything that contains her, and here she is saying "Hi"...world is a crazy place...thing is tho, no matter how much I try to put her off as a past part of my life, for some reason I think she will always be included in it. Little does she know, she is responsible for who I am now as a person, and really, I gotta thank her for that. She brought out things in me that I'm sure no other person in this world could bring out. Even tho we don't really talk, she is in a lot of ways, still a very large part of my life..lol
In other news, I've decided from here on out to no longer partake in things such as drinking and/or smoking....I wanna just take things in a different direction, put my negatively influential friends on the back burner and just do what I need to do and get more things done. I don't really know what it is that sparked this sudden change in mindset, must be all the reading and reflecting I've been doing. Once again proving to myself that my intellect and level of spirituality is well beyond my years...but dats too deep 4 yall...
Anyhow, Im out..work in the mornin...
Peace |
